Ya so I'm not sure about how to explain something, a few things actually but I will try. With the writing that I do sometimes I don't understand it until later, that might sound fishy and I don't know why it wouldn't. I think its pretty much figured out though, and just in case how to prevent it.

 

     I heard a voice say "they're sensitive" while driving today, also for some reason I took a different route home around the last 3 or so miles from my destination. A familiar area that I hadn't been through for a few years, there was fishing line on the road just like I noticed the other day on the highway, and it was for the most part right down the middle of the road. I saw some friends house that I grew up with and a person in the bushes across the street but ignored it, slowed down at the spot of the road thats covered with dirt and continued safely home until that truck drove in front of me and the car I was driving wasn't able to stop in time.

 

     A quick turn of the steering wheel would have probably prevented that accident, but I'm not sure that whatever happened after possibly missing the truck would've been any better of an outcome. Anyway that sucks, 1 less "possession" for now, hopefully a lot less accident prone reguardless.

 

     ::To catch a possession isn't the same as catching a person, that fishing line caught my attention for a minute though, and no I wasn't sidetracked by the line when the accident happened::

     After spending some time thinking about this/that/and the other, a few bits of info I haven't wrote about but believe in strongly came to mind after reading the news. It seems to me like people are jumping into statements without fully understanding what they are saying, "all I want to know is", or "that's all I want". Kind of makes me think that the person is desperate and that they will never want anything else ever. It's more of a temporary thing, a more exact usage would be something like "all I want to know right now is", or "that's all I want right now" but is that getting too picky? At the time I was REALLY worried about that problem, I had a habit and it almost seemed as if I was selling my soul for that "all I want" thing.

 

     Another issue I've been wondering about is the death penalty, if killing someone else is considered murder and murderers deserve the death penalty, is there an endless loop when someone kills the murderers? First of all, a person carrying out a death penalty sentence would technically be commiting Pre-Meditated (first degree) murder which means someone died at the hands of another and it was planned and not accidental OR self defense...or is it technically self defense? I wondered why I said that I believed some people deserve to die but that is hard to answer still to this day.

 

     I almost hate writing/talking about politics anymore but this is ethics, when the death penalty is sought I usually assume it is in order to shut someone up. The justice system almost seems to be falling apart bit by bit and has been, if it's not the laws then its the ethics of those running it, is there someone who checks for glitches in the system and brings them to our attention? And is it still ethical to KILL someone? Like over there in... nevermind.

     So this morning I had this dream, maybe I'll write more detail about it later but to sum it up an "alien spacecraft" or whatever it was informed me that "the warriors are coming". Then it zoomed off and showed 3 faces in the sky, it happened fast but it seemed like hologram technology creating the faces, and the vibe of this dream wasn't negative but was more like a communication from other life forms...in the dream. Kinda trippy.

     I was sitting back resting almost all day today. Took a nap around noon, played with the dogs a bit...even drove around a while. Around 9 something I mixed a drink and in the process of drinking that drink, I had one of those THOUGHTS. Sometimes in life we discover that there are these "things" that people had problems with at some point in time, and people died and/or were inconvenienced because of it.

 

     So I'm thinking about this, and this timeline, and everything on it that created a hiccup...and I'm wondering what words were used to change peoples minds who weren't already happy to be alive and part of this gigantic world of differences & similarities. It's that point of "this" or "that" that sometimes gets people caught up, sometimes there is an "other" that exists, kinda like a backdoor that allows us to get on with things and skip straight past the negativity.

     Theres the saying..."knowledge is power"...so does a person assume that someone seeking knowledge is actually seeking power?

     There is a saying, "be careful what you wish for"...well I sometimes forget what I wish for. That is I can't remember everything I've wished for, so from now on I will refrain from making wishes while under the influence (as well as in general). Um, now I guess some people have proven to me that I'm not as crazy as some people thought, maybe not as crazy I thought either, or at least not unable to show self control - which says a lot in my opinion. Currently in life I'm kinda sitting at a yellow light with a clear path ahead, time to spend some time and also to focus.

 

     If you know me you might know that I have been maniacally trippin quietly most of the time lately. Anyway I'm learning to draw and I've been enjoying the greyish silvery coloring that pencils create, hopefully that wont spur any negative emotions anywhere since that seems to be where the options are...in the grey not-good-not-bad area. It'll get figured out. Oh yeah, there is a "myth" or "theory" or "fact" whichever it is, that says genes are hereditary. Not sure what to say about that anymore besides finding it ironic that my father gave me a couple pair of JEANS the other day, if you heard that instead of read that you would notice the "double meanings". lol.

 

     PEACE!

 

     Oh yeah, isn't being happy part of peace? I heard a voice say, "you want(ed) peace, now you want more". Package deal and one massive package! A piece of peace.